I’m going to share the same post here I did on my Facebook. I’m certain most of you saw that, but just in case:
“Hey all,
Sorry for being missing for this long. For those who worried, I'm sorry. For those who are pissed, I get it.
Short version is that I got off the bus in MA (four weeks ago) and checked myself into the ER, and from there was hospitalized until today. I only had access to my phone once to grab a handful of numbers.
I'm out (note: discharged yesterday), and staying local (in a transitional living house). I know there are a bunch of messages and things waiting for me and I will get to them as I can. I'm a little overwhelmed at the moment, and pretty medicated.
Thank you, love you, and I'm sorry, whatever applies.”
That’s essentially it. There is of course a whole story to it all, and some of it’s pretty rough. Some of you know some levels of it, and I’m not yet sure how much of this I want to fully put out there (there’s nothing legal or criminal or dangerous or anything like that, but it was a significant mental health issue that is now under control), for a number of reasons.
I’m focusing on aftercare and rebuilding my life. Forgiving myself for not seeing years of signs that trouble might be brewing mentally before it all spiraled out of control. I don’t know what that’s going to look like, quite honestly. But I don’t need to know this right now, either.
I’ll continue to create, and write, I’m sure. Even in the hospital, I was trying to draw and create a potential fiction story (separate, not connected) while using a journal notebook and a bendable pencil made of some soft plastic that couldn’t be sharpened. I was pretty impressed with myself even if they did suck.
What I do not know is, however, what I’ll write about, how often, things like that. I’m just going to take it day to day. Period. I don’t know any more than that right now, so it’s pointless to promise any more.
And as far as this goes administratively, I’ve turned the paid subscriptions back off for the time being. September billings will be refunded in the next day or so, probably through Venmo or Paypal if I have that, otherwise I will reach out to determine the best plan of action.
Not really sure what else to add at this point, so I won’t. But I’ll see you around. Take care and be kind to each other. It’s really not that hard.