I Ask...

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I ask to remember who I am, what my purpose is, what I am here to teach and to learn, what I am here to heal, and how I am here to live my life.

I ask for release of everything that has kept me bound. This virus, of course, but also my stories around it. The belief that I was unworthy, and deserved punishment. The belief that I don’t deserve to take up all the space or have my needs and desires fulfilled. The fears of punishments and consequences for following my path and my truth. The belief that I am an inconvenience when I show up as myself. The words and actions of those who have abused, attacked, and rejected me, especially myself.

I ask for acceptance of that is and what was, and to release myself of the pains and judgments that have come attached.

I ask to let go of the need to meet people where they are at and the compulsion to water myself down for their approval. To let them have their ideas of who I am, and to let this be their truth while continuing to do me.

I ask for the gumption to put my needs first, to show myself and others that the most important thing we can do to heal this world from its collective pain is to heal our own. To honor all of ourselves, to be guided by our sovereigns, warriors, magicians, lovers. To let go of the programs and stories around this. To understand that to love ourselves and to love others, these are not exclusive.

I ask for a new, abundant space where I can be part of a vibrant, loving community seeking to share its gifts and to receive the beauty and magic that is still prevalent in the world.

I ask to reconnect to my wonder, my joy, my passion. To use my gifts in play, to respond to the world I live in, to drink in its possibilities while inspiring others to tap into those same spaces for themselves.

I ask to be one of the leaders, in ways that bring out the best of my gifts and to be part of the solution, to be part of the deconstruction process as well as the rebuilding. The collective Phoenix Rising.

I ask to continue to seek, find, and connect with the others, to connect and collaborate in creativity and love.

I ask for guidance, support, and a full pitcher from which I can pour my gifts from and share, in hopes that others will be able to do the same.

I ask this for myself and for the others.

I ask in openness and gratitude for receiving. And so it is.